Being very depressed yesterday I managed a bath to me. I bought the Laura Ashley scented candle. I picked up the lightweight-yet-interesting book. It helped.

You loved to swim but you didn’t bath. You brought the water animal set from Spain,¬†they are¬†there. We bought the monsterous water pistols last summer at your cottage, that hot day it was. These made bathing interesting to my son who joined me soon after I started the book.

Laying there I thought the elderly survival equipments I saw earlier the day. Beds with edges, beds without edges. Lifting and moving cupboards. How dare you be afraid I would not be there to help you. And more painfully, I feel quilty not communicated that clear enough to you. As your leaving is my fault.

It is not.

But never thought that a minute when my parents divorced.